should i end it all

[iwannaenditall]

i am 5’10 and 250 pounds and its hard for me to loose weight ive tried and also ive had depression since i was in 2nd grade im now 61 and its worse and worse ive tried resching out but nobody believes me im also very shy and insecure i act more happy at school im more talkative which makes my friends think im actually like that but im tired of it all and i dont think lifes worth living anyways because my parents hate me but i love them and i dont wanna experience their deaths and my family judges me thinking i dont try to loose weight. ive starved myself i trained boxing for two and a half years (3 hours a day 5x a week while training outisde during summers and doing 3 mile walks a day maybe more) and still say its not enough so js wanted to see. thank you

 

[Sunny Sunny]

i am 5’10 and 250 pounds and its hard for me to loose weight ive tried and also ive had depression since i was in 2nd grade im now 61 and its worse and worse ive tried resching out but nobody believes me im also very shy and insecure i act more happy at school im more talkative which makes my friends think im actually like that but im tired of it all and i dont think lifes worth living anyways because my parents hate me but i love them and i dont wanna experience their deaths and my family judges me thinking i dont try to loose weight. ive starved myself i trained boxing for two and a half years (3 hours a day 5x a week while training outisde during summers and doing 3 mile walks a day maybe more) and still say its not enough so js wanted to see. thank you

dont end it man ure still young at 16 theres still so much things in life you have yet to experience. If anything isnt helping with your depression or fat loss journey then just consider hopping on gear/PEDs at this point. Life will feel way different when ure on them compared to now. Im not saying my advice here is great tho theres a shit ton of risks to handle but it had worked for me and it might work for u too especially since u tried reaching out to people and nobody is there to save you. Trust me i get that and i had to just took matters onto my own hands. Life is worth living man WAGMI

 

[iwannaenditall]

dont end it man ure still young at 16 theres still so much things in life you have yet to experience. If anything isnt helping with your depression or fat loss journey then just consider hopping on gear/PEDs at this point. Life will feel way different when ure on them compared to now. Im not saying my advice here is great tho theres a shit ton of risks to handle but it had worked for me and it might work for u too especially since u tried reaching out to people and nobody is there to save you. Trust me i get that and i had to just took matters onto my own hands. Life is worth living man WAGMI

i have a nosy brother and parents who dont even let me have a card of my own to spend on gear and id take 8 things at once if i could but also even if i did look good and all i js feel like theres a part of me that would make me feel like im missing smth especially since my grandma died a few years ago and ive understood how much looks mattered for years. thanks for ur response

 

[Sunny Sunny]

i have a nosy brother and parents who dont even let me have a card of my own to spend on gear and id take 8 things at once if i could but also even if i did look good and all i js feel like theres a part of me that would make me feel like im missing smth especially since my grandma died a few years ago and ive understood how much looks mattered for years. thanks for ur response

im sorry to hear that man if anything u wanna talk or vent out then WE ALL are here for you

 

[iwannaenditall]

im sorry to hear that man if anything u wanna talk or vent out then WE ALL are here for you

thanks

 

[paris]

i am 5’10 and 250 pounds and its hard for me to loose weight ive tried and also ive had depression since i was in 2nd grade im now 61 and its worse and worse ive tried resching out but nobody believes me im also very shy and insecure i act more happy at school im more talkative which makes my friends think im actually like that but im tired of it all and i dont think lifes worth living anyways because my parents hate me but i love them and i dont wanna experience their deaths and my family judges me thinking i dont try to loose weight. ive starved myself i trained boxing for two and a half years (3 hours a day 5x a week while training outisde during summers and doing 3 mile walks a day maybe more) and still say its not enough so js wanted to see. thank you

what do you lose from sticking it out and not giving up on yourself?
nothing. give life another shot kid. you've got great things to accomplish. all the resources are at your fingers. weight loss becomes fun after a while. play games and challenge yourself.

 

[iwannaenditall]

what do you lose from sticking it out and not giving up on yourself?
nothing. give life another shot kid. you've got great things to accomplish. all the resources are at your fingers. weight loss becomes fun after a while. play games and challenge yourself.

ive tried loosing weight in many ways rn im on wegovy ima later hop on reta and i wanna try to buy trt but also my friends dont understand what neurodivergence is and that im nd and i get made fun of for saying im nd

 

[Sunny Sunny]

ive tried loosing weight in many ways rn im on wegovy ima later hop on reta and i wanna try to buy trt but also my friends dont understand what neurodivergence is and that im nd and i get made fun of for saying im nd

reta is a great option ngl and trt too. Also i feel u on the ND part it pmo how none of my friends give a fuck about me being ND i literally hate them (fucking NT niggas)🫩

 

[iwannaenditall]

its genuinely getting worse. I feel that in this current day and age life has no point. I wanna go back to boxing bc getting hit in the head was my only source of therapy. Idk i feel as if im going to always be in a depressive state. Not even having the life i dreamed of would help. I always would feel something missing especially after the death of my grandma. I just hate everything.

 

[Sunny Sunny]

its genuinely getting worse. I feel that in this current day and age life has no point. I wanna go back to boxing bc getting hit in the head was my only source of therapy. Idk i feel as if im going to always be in a depressive state. Not even having the life i dreamed of would help. I always would feel something missing especially after the death of my grandma. I just hate everything.

look i know its difficult but please dont give up man. idk if i can be much help just know that ure not alone in all of this literally as of recent time we all have been going through tough shit and its probably because its gonna be winter and shit always happens but try your best to be positive even if everything fucking sucks. like i understand dude ive literally lost my grandfather not too long ago too and recently a so called “ldr rs”. its normal to feel this way but try to change ur perspective in life and im sure u will start seeing things more clearly and positively. if anything were all here