should i end it all

i am 5’10 and 250 pounds and its hard for me to loose weight ive tried and also ive had depression since i was in 2nd grade im now 61🔄 and its worse and worse ive tried resching out but nobody believes me im also very shy and insecure i act more happy at school im more talkative which makes my friends think im actually like that but im tired of it all and i dont think lifes worth living anyways because my parents hate me but i love them and i dont wanna experience their deaths and my family judges me thinking i dont try to loose weight. ive starved myself i trained boxing for two and a half years (3 hours a day 5x a week while training outisde during summers and doing 3 mile walks a day maybe more) and still say its not enough so js wanted to see. thank you