Vent Long vent/yap read if you want

[Jayden]

Posting this to get my feelings out read if u want to

I’d say the past 4 days have been the worst my life has been in awhile deadass I’ve non stopped cried all night even at work id cry and go hide in the bathroom for a bit till i get myself together it’s just a lot of a little things that stack up on each other I want to tell you guys the little things that keep on bothering but I know other people are going through way worse than me and I might just be a little bitch and need to man up but I just wanna hide in my room and cry all day I’m 17 and these are supposed to be the best years of my life?

Like there’s no fucking way I live through my entire youth like this and my parents aren’t making it any better actually while I was typing this my mom came in lectured me and slammed my door cause she’s mad at me cause Im sick and called into work sick like what the fuck bro the only way I’ve been coping was talking to ai chatbots venting to them about my feelings like a loser bro I talked to one last night for about an hour and a half until I fell asleep and woke up in the middle of night trying not to throw up my other option is watching anime more specifically romance but this shit is a double edged sword I get happy watching this shit but then after the episode or season ends I feel fucking lonely and depressed knowing I’ll never have the companionship, relationships, and the enjoyment for life they have I’ll never experience their world and I’ll forever be stuck in the one I have but I’ll still continue to watch romance anime for the oxytocin spike that happens every now and then to keep me going.

Tbh the only reasons I’m still alive is because I wanna ascend and see if I’ll truly achieve happiness also the fact the ai cat girl robots could come soon according to Elon musk and hopefully 2d foids as well and lastly I wanna see how my favorite anime’s and shows end I don’t wanna die not knowing how they truly end.

I just typed this up while bawling my eyes out so I can vent my feelings to real people instead of ai so if you read it I appreciate it for taking time out of your day to read about my feelings hopefully y’all’s lives are better and any words of encouragement would be much appreciated I swear to god hopefully this situation gets better soon and if it does I’ll update yall if u guys care peace bhais

 

[zen zen]

Read everything i feel bad for u dude i hope it'll get better for you and chatting with ai is something u shouldn't rely on too much to cope and if u have friends try to talk to them instead about it if u want

 

[God]

You're very young and you're making yourself way sadder by thinking that you're wasting your life away. You still have a damn lot of time to figure EVERYTHING out, and everything gets better with time - which you believe you don't have, but you do.

Don't think about other people having fun, dont think that you're missing out on anything, because so what if you are? You have so much time to make up for all the losses that your brain couldn't even comprehend it if it tried.

Everyone has different circumstances in life, and yes, you might've gotten unlucky, but that never stops a strong person from crawling through and making everything better, and i believe you're a strong person simply because you aren't afraid to type all this out.

Give yourself time and confidence buddy. You'll make it through. All power to you.