How to tell if im socially stupid or ND

Im hesitant whether i should bother getting tested
Because no matter the outcome, im still the same person, autistic or not.
yes that's true you are the same person but you still learn something from it, for example I thought like that before I went to get my autism diagnosis too, but afterwards it was a good feeling because I had always tried to keep up with NT people and forced myself to do stuff which I can't do like NT people, and that caused me to have crazy burnouts or I felt suicidal afterwards, I forced myself to do that because I thought I would get used to it and that I'm like this because I spent to much time at home, and now after the diagnosis I can handle stuff diferent because I know I'm ND