Why does nobody hold me to the same standard they hold others too

damn i wish i had shitty memory but no i literally remember things that happened to me since nursery vividly. even then i take things personally too lol but smart move to keep urself busy hella mirin
haha its a curse lwk
my shit memory lwk comes from being touched as a kid so anything tramatic that happens my brain just forgets it my worry is that it will all eventual come back and fuck me up lol