What is it like being a woman

It might seem like im bitter about life, but actually people have always treated me very well

since childhood (around the age of 9), I struggled with ed. I was never overweight, but I was afraid that people would feel disgusted if I became chubby, so I carefully watched my weight and was always active in sports (judo and track and field).

also from a young age I internalized the idea that “people judge a book by its cover”
ive never really had problems because of how I look… people are usually kind to me,strangers compliment me, some random guys can ask my number while im just walking at the park
But sometimes it’s sad to realize and wonder WHAT exactly people love me for.
It’s sad that there will probably never be a man who loves me for my good character, and that instead, when he sees me, he might feel lust and say that he likes me because I look kind….