I think I have abused dog syndrome

For those who do not know what it means:
Abused dog syndrome refers to physical and behavioral symptoms of trauma, including extreme fear, aggression, anxiety, hiding, and hypervigilance (e.g., trembling, startled by movement) Affected dogs often exhibit, through, or social withdrawal as a survival mechanism. Rehabilitation involves patience, positive reinforcement, and specialized veterinary behavioral training.
I do not know how to overcome this, I do not want to seek out the positive reinforcement because I do not want to be hurt in the process, and I also feel like an attention craving whore

What do I do, and do not make some gay response saying 'just put yourself out there' what is something that I can do alone