What are your favourite methods of relaxing
that's interesting, i feel like i have equal amounts of stress or excitement online or offline, depending on how much i feel capable of communicating.
I feel like online connections are really 'true' in a sense, idk, it all doesn't feel the same
Then again when you're actually talking to someone, you're talking to THEM, while here I'm just clicking things and then someone's reads and interprets it where while yes it is still frightening that they have their own depiction of myself in their head it's less frightening because it's the idea of anonymity where they do not really know me and they are across the globe
it sounds like she ghosted you, which is unfortunate. was the relationship established as romantic or was it kind of a 'indirect' / 'we're talking' phase? do you think that wouldve changed how you viewed the situation?
it was direct, we were dating for around 5 months, I bought her a valentines gift and we had done sexual acts together over messaging platforms, she told me it was her first time doing anything like that with another person, it was the same for me, but I do not know how much I believed in that, I am sad, I viewed a future with her, she looked normal, she was also into the looksmax sphere too, she called the BP retarded and said looks do not matter, but I guess they do, her actions did not reflect her words, maybe it was better that we ended things, she did tell me that she was an avoidant but idk, I feel sick, I think I am an anxious attachment person? I would always get gut wrenching feelings about small things that happened like her old social media reposts and posts, and same with her friends posting hearts onto her things, even though the friend was a male, I do not understand people like that, maybe it was for the better
that's understandable to a certain degree i imagine. if u feel most comfortable in certain types of groups and world views, i imagine it's just easier to seek it out than to always have to fight against it for reasons outside of urself. alt-lit bein alternative literature, right?
indeed, but even then I feel like they just mask their degenerate nature