I want a husband but I have internalised homophobia

i think internalized homophobia is normal, snd something you can work towards improving. im married but still queer. it was something i struggled with long before my husband ever entered my life, and traces of the mentality unfortunately show in my life.

as well as having preferences, such as not really being attracted to short folk.

trauma is ever impacting, and takes a long time to undo. if a lot of how u view urself and the world is filtered thru this lens, it's understandable why u feel this way. talk therapy helps, emdr has changed my life personally.