I’m so mentally drained from all this bs. I realise that I always be there for them and always make gifts and act nice but don’t get the same back. I invest my time and energy and just got used for that. I make them as my priority. I usually get zero notifications form people and when I start to talk to someone I give my all to them and when I see that I’m just there when needed it fucks me up. Im not even ugly or shit like that. I’m 185/6’1 and I’ve had relationships before but holy shit. I deleted TikTok 2 days ago. I had like 7h daily on it and I just doom scrolled all day because I had no one to talk to or go outside with. I used to watch her reposts all of the time to the point where I memorised all of them. We used to keep a streak but after I deleted the app she texted asking if there’s any problem with me because I left her on sent for 2 days(still haven’t replied). She will ask me why won’t I reply tomorrow at the gym so I hope things go well. After deleting the app I have too much free time like I don’t know what to do. I spent 2h in Gemini and 2h on games and other bs today. I’m tired man.