I wanna die

thanks for the advice, i personally wanna hop on a few peps and im ok w dying by 30 as long as i loom good, because all my friends have gfs or have had them i havent, and i am so introverted and insecure due to my looks and knowing how much they matter so im okay with dying young bc most of my life so far has just been nd hell and a bunch of introversion and insecurity.