I no longer see a point in living

I have had this depression for 10+ years, nobody to talk to, boxing was a slight form of therapy, overweight and only 5’10. my depression gets worse towards winter or summer and its bad rn. I dont see a future worth living at least for me. There is so much more i wanna talk about but cant put into words.
Well obviously, you're scared of living...

You should really just try to live your life, at the end of the day you can only experience it once.

I think you can definently find joy if you look for it in the right place