try incorporating more cardio to lift up your TDEE, then you'll have more wiggle room for calories or the guilt that comes with it. I've got a bit of a disordered mindset as well, so this isn't the greatest advice but when you work for and "earn" food the guilt goes away. even a tiny bit.
water, hydration, and electrolytes are the other snippet. when you're cutting are you prioritizing micro/macronutrients or just looking at the calories of a food item? you should try incorporating "healthy" fats or a fish oil supplement and monitor how you feel.